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black ballpens

2012-02-10T01:02:00.001+08:00

Undoubtedly for some, they find joy in retail therapy and buying big ticket items. Others love the thrill of the chase when it comes to bargain hunting. I, on the other hand revel in the tiny joys of finding quality black pens at low low low prices. Found a couple good ones at National Powerplant last week and i'm still feeling the joy of finding them now.

Babaw ba? :-)

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Change of Pace

2012-02-09T01:20:00.001+08:00

Again, I'm going to write another "it's been awhile" blog entry. :) It seems that's how things go, when you let yourself get bogged down by the day-to-day. You let the little pieces of you fall away as you try to find a better place in the rat-race. You get so lost in your own habits, stuck in your own rut and confuse those daily, weekly, monthly and then yearly routines with the concept of "identity". Your human doing becomes your human being, when it should be the other way around.

But I digress.

I turned on the PC hoping to start my life as a blogger anew. To start, even though a month and 7 days late, with a New Year's resolution, or rather Resolutions.

Ok, Ok. I know what some of you may be thinking. The naysayers (I've got the voice of one in my head) may be going "another set of resolutions?". Another set of goals that I may, or more than likely may not be able to complete. After all, the goals from the set of resolutions found on several entries ahead of this post didn't exactly didn't exactly pan out. However, doesn't change the fact that I, at this point in my life. have realized that there are just some things that I shouldn't stop doing, regardless of how busy I think I may be.

Now, for those of you who are fans of the "Mayan Dooms Day" that is supposed to occur sometime towards the end of this year as popularized by recent American movies and pop culture, such a positive attitude may seem futile.
However, I, for one, would like to believe that my life is going to be a long and abundant one. I just have to make a start. Great things start from small beginnings, as one old choco drink advert once sang. I choose to make my small beginning here and now.

With that in mind, I resolve to do the following this year:

1) Be positive. I will let positivity and good-vibes rule my life no matter how challenging it gets.
2) Be grateful. I will be thankful for every little thing. I will find joy in the little things.
3) Be healthy. Mind what I eat, how often I eat, how much I eat. That doesn't mean I'll stop enjoying what I eat though. :)
4) Find time for fitness. Lets start small and slow and build up to a better me. :) Like getting enough sleep for one. Drink more water.
5) Create more, consume less. Lets get our creative juices flowing, in any of all of my blogs.
6) Don't stop shooting.
7) Reconnect and stay connected. Find time for friends.
8) Listen to and follow tips in "The Sunscreen Song".
9) Grow. Learn. Sharpen the Saw.
10) Live simpler.
11) Learn to let go to make room for more. :)

If I find any of the above to be too challenging, I should always keep in mind the life motto I made for myself when I attended one of the few seminars that Dad asked me to attend...

Be. Mean. Matter.

Be someone.
Mean something.
Matter somehow.

For now, I think I will take an active role in my attempt to keep my 4th resolution for myself. I will go get some sleep. :)

But first, new blog template, new blog entry. To new beginnings. :)

...

2011-04-19T22:39:00.000+08:00

there are things in this world that you cannot force. water from a stone for example. or a candy from a child's hand. or a bone from a dog.

it seems to be the same with feelings.

new year na... ngayon lang ang entry

2011-04-02T23:10:00.000+08:00

i haven't been blogging much. in this or in any other blog. i haven't been shooting much, other than work. hmmmmm. a new beginning is in order.

anyway, it's April. its been a roller coaster ride of a year, and it's just the end of the 1st quarter and beginning of the 2nd. and there are still things up in the air that need to be resolved, and some things that will get resolved in their own due time... daw. sana.

it's funny how things started out the other way around. that i was the one who wasn't so attached. who was the mysterious detached one who got the first ily. and now i'm looking for it more often than i'm getting it. and not saying it because i'm not getting it back.

out of sight, out of mind seems to be the order of the day. it's not the same as it used to be. now that i want it to be more like before.

new beginnings na po tayo. new years resolutions pushed to April. :)
1) reach 105kg by June. 90kg by end of the year. GAME ON! Which will be achieved by regularly going for...
2) jog and gym weekly! Jog 3x a week Plus gym 2x. Which won't stop me from...
3) banchetto every 3rd Friday-Saturday of the month
4) weekly blog entries in this and photobu, plus in other blogs to keep my creative juices flowing
5) mind my money (save minimum 1k monthly for the rest of the year)
6) grow my relationships and figure things out

It's never too late.

cramming cramming cramming

2010-12-21T11:36:00.000+08:00

I don't know if it's the fact that I don't feel the Christmas spirit as readily or as intensely as I used to, or maybe that certain things that have happened in my fairly recent past has sort of mutated the meaning of Christmas for me, but I have not started Christmas shopping for anyone.

So just in case I give you guys a hug for Christmas, well, you know you're not the only one. :)

tumblr

2010-12-19T01:17:00.001+08:00

jcbulatao has joined tumblr. :P this is a test post and can be ignored. hopefully this cross-posts. yehey!

Tuesday Off Day Soundtrip: Let Go by Frou Frou / Imogen Heap

2010-11-30T14:01:00.000+08:00

It's a blank day. A rest day. Doing my best not to have to do anything connected to work. And yet here I am glued to the PC.

I'm taking a shower. Going for a ride.

Let go.

"Let Go"

Drink up baby doll
Are you in or are you out?
Leave your things behind
'Cause it's all going off without you
Excuse me too busy you're writing your tragedy
These mishaps
You bubble-wrap
When you've no idea what you're like

[Chorus:]
So, let go, let go
Jump in
Oh well, what you waiting for?
It's all right
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown
So, let go, let go
Just get in
Oh, it's so amazing here
It's all right
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown

It gains the more it gives
And then it rises with the fall
So hand me that remote
Can't you see that all that stuff's a sideshow?
Such boundless pleasure
We've no time for later
Now you can't await
your own arrival
you've twenty seconds to comply

[Chorus:]
So, let go, so let go
Jump in
Oh well, what you waiting for?
It's alright
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown
So, let go, yeah let go
Just get in
Oh, it's so amazing here
It's all right
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown

[Background sounds]

[Chorus:]
So, let go,
Jump in
Oh well, what you waiting for?
It's alright
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown
So, let go, yeah let go
Just get in
Oh, it's so amazing here
It's all right
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown

In the breakdown
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown
The breakdown

So amazing here
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown

trying times

2010-11-29T01:38:00.000+08:00

these are trying times... and time enough for everything? perhaps not. not enough time. not enough money. not enough anything... not enough justice in the world, or responsibility for ourselves and our actions...

sometimes it's hard to keep the attitude of gratitude when so many things tend to happen to you, instead of you making it happen. need to focus on the little things. need to be happier with little things.

i missed a family party tonight, or rather yesterday evening as it's 1:34AM. it was the family Christmas party / November - December Birthday party rolled into one as a lot of people won't be around come Christmas time. I missed it coz I had work that forced me to stay at the office until way past my bedtime, only to be ejected by a well-meaning guard, which meant that I wasn't able to finish work.

I am still awake. I am awake because I choose to be however. I chose to distract myself with my myriad of facebook games. I chose to write this down because, well, I chose to add to this mundane blog of mine... ok, mundane for NOW. just now. if only for now. it will be full of awesomeness when time comes.

again with time. time that passes so swiftly through our fingers. time that is gold, and fleeting, and endless yet limited.

i wonder what being a vampire would be like...

i wonder if i won the lotto last saturday.

i think i should sleep.

good night.

Attitude of Gratitude: a Champ for a champ

2010-11-19T19:33:00.000+08:00

just wanted to share this before i forgot, or just decide not to share it altogether.

i had a shoot today, and lets say that it had its challenges. :) but she was a pretty little girl who's as sweet as she is challenging to handle, and i was my patient-best with her and was rewarded with some adorable photos. after the shoot, her mom took the time to buy me a Jollibee Champ meal, with large softdrink and fries to show how thankful she was for my understanding and patience.

i am thankful too. :)

attitude of gratitude.

small joys and the law of attraction

2010-11-18T23:50:00.000+08:00

looking back at some previous posts, and thinking back to my recent past, it seems that i have been practicing the law of attraction with how i feel, how i act and react. while i don't believe i can change the past, its not too late to change the present and work for the future.

so if the universe doesn't mind, i think i'm going to try and practice the law of attraction more positively and more often from now on.

let us be thankful for our small joys shall we?

1.) new socks
2.) good friends
3.) good times
4.) good buzz
5.) happy thoughts
6.) little kids
7.) memories of teaching.
8.) loving work
9.) loving workmates
10.) loving family
11.) knowing my passion
12.) practicing my passion
13.) getting paid for practicing my passion
14.) fun movie
15.) loving company
16.) a normal childhood

Lets work on a short term goal.

WIN THE LOTTO!!! :)

We will win the lotto. :) We will win the lotto. We will win the lotto.

numb

2010-10-01T03:06:00.000+08:00

hmmmm. it seems that i will have a hardtime blogging from my tablet. it won't let me edit in regular compose mode. that is quite unfortunate. i didn't forsee that in the purchase. then again there were a lot of things i hadn't anticiated. no matter. i guess i will just learn to accept it or work around it. so much for my totally unrelated foreword.

numb. i've been numb lately. well, maybe for the last few years... i don't know how screwed-up my emotions have been but if how i'm feeling about this little spat is any indication, i begin to wonder if i'm even capable of real love at all.

has the disfunctionality of the last five years finally taken its toll? or has this lifelong reoccupation with love resulted in desensitization? have i ever really loved at all?

perhaps we jumped back into a relationship too soon. maybe i haven't learnt the lessons i ought have mastered by now... when do i level up?

(de)Signs of The Times

2010-09-28T09:49:00.000+08:00

I'm making micro entries to make, well, more entries. I think it helps to make one entry about one solid thought, don't you? So that people don't get the impression that I'm ADD or anything... oh look a bug.

ANYWAY, I've realized that I've to keep updating my blog's design, the blog contents, and the content maker lest I stagnate as a person. And I've been stagnating big time. Don't get me wrong though, I've been trying to do lots of new things, starting projects left and right. But you know how the story goes with me. I guess that's something I learned back in the old days, "Greatly begin, though you have time..." funny thing is, I don't know how quite to greatly end things.

Did you spot it that time? Yes, an unintentional tangent. Hahahah.

What I meant to write about, with respect to the title, was that I need to update the blog template. I've also to be careful with what I ought to put on the sidebars.

Wahoo.

"it's been awhile" 09.28.10

2010-09-28T08:56:00.000+08:00

Good morning world. It's been awhile yet again. I haven't blogged in ages, in this or any other blog. I'm pretty sure that this blog hasn't got much of a following. But here I am, and I shall attempt to generate one.

If you happen to be familiar with the old one, the older blog bearing the same name, that was on blogdrive. But I've since abandoned that blog in favor of this because of some linking concerns which weren't conducive to my making-money-on-line attempts. Hmmmm. Before this blog becomes profitable in any shape or form, I'm going to have to write up a lot of content. But what the hell. I've to start somewhere eh?

Blogging used to be part of my release. And lately I haven't been getting any (and you can take this and interpret this in as many ways as you want, and you'd be right for most of them). I don't want to fill this with angsty stuff, and self-piteous ramblings. :) I've reserved a private unlinked blog for that (though the more enterprising ones might be moved to do some actual googling, and part of me hopes you find it). If any of the entries happen to be slightly photographic in nature, I'll be cross posting via photobu, as usual, which will mean automatic posting on facebook.

Updates... are there any updates?

:) I'm happier lately.

On a seemingly unrelated note though, I've recently heard this song by The Script on the radio, and I love it. For The First Time.

Slowdanced in a burning room

2010-04-17T01:35:00.001+08:00

...

"Slow Dancing In A Burning Room"

It's not a silly little moment,
It's not the storm before the calm.
This is the deep and dying breath of
This love that we've been working on.

Can't seem to hold you like I want to
So I can feel you in my arms.
Nobody's gonna come and save you,
We pulled too many false alarms.

We're going down,
And you can see it too.
We're going down,
And you know that we're doomed.
My dear,
We're slow dancing in a burning room.

I was the one you always dreamed of,
You were the one I tried to draw.
How dare you say it's nothing to me?
Baby, you're the only light I ever saw.

I'll make the most of all the sadness,
You'll be a bitch because you can.
You try to hit me just to hurt me
So you leave me feeling dirty
Because you can't understand.

We're going down,
And you can see it too.
We're going down,
And you know that we're doomed.
My dear,
We're slow dancing in a burning room.

Go cry about it - why don't you?
Go cry about it - why don't you?
Go cry about it - why don't you?

My dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room,
Burning room,
Burning room,
Burning room,
Burning room.

Don't you think we oughta know by now?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?
Don't you think we oughta know by now?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?
Don't you think we oughta know by now?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?

Change

2010-04-06T00:16:00.002+08:00

It seems that this is the only thing that's constant alright. And yet we all fight so hard to avoid it. In the end we have no choice but to yield to it. We all, every one, will be caught-up in the tides of time, and all the changes that each day will bring.

Updating the Self

2010-03-09T14:00:00.002+08:00

Since my last general-terms blog entry, so many things have happened...

I dislocated my shoulder.

Dad passed away.

Christmas came and went, and we decided to work on us...

New Years was quieter than most.

Decisions at work that affect everyone were made and not everyone was happy.

And when February came...

Change is the only constant. And I'm not a big fan of that. But we have to change... Or else inevitable unhappiness will ensue.

so little time

2009-09-10T00:47:00.004+08:00

Those who know me who might read this might know what I mean. Those who don't, well, I don't know if I'm ready to talk about what i mean in detail just yet. Funny thing about this particular blog is not very many people know of its existence I would guess. So, it would appear that I'm just talking to myself. But I shall anyway, as I just need to get things off my chest.

Life's too short. That seems to be the theme lately. Realizations don't come quick enough, most are earned with hindsight. But in this situation, where I am now... life's too short. And it's not fair... but it never is I guess.

I'm trying my hardest to talk in general terms without being to... blah...

I don't think I've ever admitted it, but maybe I am a depressing sort of individual. And a depressed one at that. I don't think I have any REAL self-esteem. What other people see as confidence is only a front to keep them from seeing the real me I hide inside... the weak me. The scared me. The fat me... all those me's with exception for the last one I think I am able to successfully hide from public viewing, for the most part.
With... this... an end... I don't know how to put it without getting too emotionally caught up... with this coming, inexorably forward... and I know I can't stop it. I wish I could slow it down... and yet... I don't know. I don't know how to deal.

For now, lest the tears that are brimming inside of me overflow, lets just leave it at that.

29 years and 8 days, and free

2009-08-20T00:49:00.003+08:00

:) I'm not sure whether I should be counting down or up to the big Three-Zero... 3-0... damn it thirty. :)

Life's going by as fast as it ever has. Perhaps faster it would seem because of certain time constraints that fate has chosen to deal our way. And I find myself ill-prepared, mentally, emotionally, physically and financially to handle them. Either that or I just don't want to accept responsibility for reality as I know it and I'm letting it wash over me like a tidal wave once more, hoping that when the water finally ebbs (heheheh. ebs), I'll be left with a clean slate, an empty beach... nevermind the wreckage of the previous life. Those become treasure in time...

I think that would be an apt assessment and description for the way of thinking that's gotten me this far. And I don't know just how far I want it to take me. I don't know if I can or should let it take me any further / farther than this.

I have hope. I have a future. I have the power. I know all this. And yet, here I am, in a rut. Or am I?

If I'm lucky, I'll live a life span twice my current age. If I'm studious enough with exercise, or exercise at all, and if I watch my diet and actually control it, I just might actually live past that.

But here I am, where I am, when I am. Can't say I've much to complain about but, perhaps more often than not, you'll hear me complain. Life's not easy. No one's perfect. Can't please everyone all the time.

Perhaps I should be more grateful...

I am alive. Thank you.

The last 48 hours of 28...

2009-08-09T23:54:00.003+08:00

I don't know when it started, but I don't really celebrate my birthday, my own birthday, with the happiness and gratitude that one should have for having survived another year on this Earth. In a bout 2 minutes (from this line), the last 48 hours before the Earth will have been able to go around the sun for exactly 10589 days since I was born will commence.

Well look at that. It just started. 48 hour count down to my birthdate.

I really don't know how many people will be reading THIS blog, but I'll be cross posting. Because I'm generous like that. I love sharing.

I have mixed feelings about this year. About this life in general. What have the past 29 years of my life amounted to so far? I won't enumerate here. While my pessimistic, depressive side will count the years in disappointments and trials and tribulations, I would like to hope that there's an equal or greater than amount of good things that have happened to and have happened because of me in the same amount of time.

I end this entry with 47 hours 40 minutes left. Good night all. :)

cross-posting via FB and blogdrive... probably one of the last blogdriveposts. :)

MUNDANE: Another OFF day down the drain

2009-07-28T22:36:00.004+08:00

Funny thing about today. It was my off day. I spent about 4 hours of it working however (both at the office and at home). I'm such a workaholic. But not a happy one.

I cleaned the car and the bike today with the new handy dandy Aqua Brush. Got in a little arm exercise there I guess.

Got into a little accident on the bike while gassing up. I think I bruised my shin. I hope it's just a bruise. There's a bit of a swelling and a bit of pain while standing up but nothing major. Not panicking yet.

It's 15 days from my birthday. If you know me, and if I've told you, I get somewhat depressed on the day itself. I guess I build it up to something that it's not, and then get disappointed in the end. Weird no? Ewan ko ba. Goal for the year: Just be content with the day. Treat as any other.

Wish lists? I've got some / one. It hasn't been revised for the longest time though. I'd post it here, but who'd read it?

I'm feeling a bit negative today I guess. Been in a funk for the longest time. I should get out of it soon or risk being swallowed up in it forever (eh eh ever, eh eh ever... shoot me).

realizations

2009-07-23T01:39:00.002+08:00

I've just realized, through a conversation with Neng's brother, Kevin, that I have lost touch with the enthusiasm that I was once bubbling over with, with regards to photography. I think I've let the stress of work get to me, and while most of it is still fun, it's starting to lose its pull...

I guess I'm the one who's changing... or rather NOT changing. I haven't been adapting quite as well to the situation that life has put me in at the moment. While on the surface I might often be as amiable as ever, friendly as usual, and helpful when able... inside, at home... I'm resisting change. I'm resisting time as it unceasingly pushes past me, day by day, moment by moment, for reasons others might know, and reasons I cannot bring myself to talk about. Not yet.

I wonder who'd read this. These blog entries that I am adding to a blog I've once abandoned, and don't much advertise.

One wonders about many things. And maybe now is not the time to talk about them all, or anything at all... suffice it to say that the main thought behind writing this whole entry is the realization that I've stagnated as a person. I've started so many things and haven't finished a lot of them. I've accumulated so many things and just filled my life, my room with all of them, letting them gather dust.

It's time for some spring cleaning.

decision reached: reactivating this blog

2009-07-06T02:23:00.001+08:00

the title says it all.

I originally meant to migrate this blog to blogspot a long time ago but I never got around to doing it. gotta start sometime. won't be getting any of the old entries but I might cross-post from time to time.

this blog is going to feature my thoughts, however offensive and wrong. :) if ever I wind up allowing myself to share such. anyway, i'm actually super sleepy and just being hard headed. the emergency trip to uplb (status on fb) to pick-up my sick brother was wholely unecessary had he decided to stay at home in the first place.

goodnight for now.

test post

2005-03-07T21:26:00.000+08:00

Good evening all.

Still wondering why I'm doing this. I guess I'm sick of all the adverts.

Hello blogger. Here I come.